another try...soon to be

I woke up this morning and realized it is almost time to try again. This month I am going for all the shots. That damn egg will not get away. Do I want a February baby though. What will that mean for the child. Should I start it off in kindergarten early, or should it grow up the oldest in its class. I liked being a summer child because I knew I was whatever age people thought I should be at the beginning of each school year. Do other kids care about that stuff. I have had friends of all months. The fall babies seem to be the youngest in their class, while winter and spring babies seem to be the oldest. So who ever reads this and wants to give me tips on their own experience or the experience of their children that would be great. I want to post this on my myspace but too many people read that who I have yet to tell I am trying. I feel like now its too late to include them until I know I have been successful at trying. Why must the family I am physically closest to be the ones that I am afraid or unwilling to share this detail with. And yet the family that is new or far away I haven't the slightest hesitation to share the true me with. I fail to include question marks in this because I am not actually asking a question but rather streaming my mind. Yes iI do want advice but I do not want to be picked at. So offer kind words but no judgements please. Thank you...