was it a mistake or will power (and finding out who true freinds are)

I got an early appointment to check out Big C. Had a long talk with the doctor and prepared my heart and mind for the worst case scenario. Then he started the procedure, painted on the contrast dye, and waited the few seconds that seemed like hours. Then he looked at me puzzled. He couldnt find anything. There was nothing he could see in contrast to biopsy. I dont know what was there before, maybe that mucus membrane related crap he mentioned, but all I know is he said nothing is there now. He took a sample much deeper and further up than a typical pap smear just to be sure, but I have faith that this scare is over.

That being said, its sad that things like this show us who really care. I know ive said this time and time again, but I must live by my new rule. "does this positively affect me or my family in anyway?" if I cant answer that question with a yes or something very similar to yes then it simply shouldnt be a part of my life. Why is it so hard to let go of some unhealthy, unhappy friendships. Should I change my phone number? Do I need to change my facebook? How can I just get away from the people in my life that I wish were not. Its not that I hate them or that I dont wish them well in their journey. Its just that I am trying my best to do well on my journey and they are simply creating more obstacles than I care to handle. Is this something that needs to be communicated to these people, or should it happen more organically? I just dont know. I dont want to mislead anyone, but I dont want to cause unnecessary drama either. I guess sometimes you just have to breakup with friends. Sometimes you dont just grow apart naturally. Oh well Im sure I will figure out how to say goodbye somehow. For now I am too happy about the first part of this blog to focus on the second part.